Disposition

The state of being disposed
All that we enter with neither place to defend just different ways
First thing I do with any baby is look right at em
You like new people or you do not like new people

The only question you get straight answer from a baby

Those are the states we are disposed and all else taught
Both strategies and tautologies
Some basic function to master the key being sleep
What I taught my children first

Children who sleep can be forgiven many things
They learn better
Better disposed which ever way they wonder out
Our responsibility?

A place to start
Like a mirror left right right left
Stop see clock-wise is clock-wise
Multiple paths and a single goal: sustainability

12 Times a Day

You come and you go but you know who you are
Not always there the most you are able and with training
Just there and be and answer

I come and I go fall in love 12 times a day
When you experience is not your circumstance
Mindful awareness here and there will full intention from the context of you

A more perfect fall I have never witnessed
What colour you like I find upon my window pane
The world or how north america's migratory birds view it: pass

Geography of these 24 hours I fall in love 4 times a day just in dream
Recollection of reality harsh words mended in a glance all that you ever needed
Words spoken words taken used not personal interpersonal no side

Family, friends, children, allons, jarons and 12 but an average today still early
Here and there the other appear joined my side just for us to see
We pass more people in the day than we will ever know well

14 years

There is good research on happiness almost quantified
We assume circumstance must have importance and find almost none
Who you are and what you decide is important to do 90%

I remember Pat
And I find this understanding that circumstance is nothing

Being

Things come full circle because of efficiency
It is easiest

I had this theory when I was younger that you could be and not do
I thought that I had no motivation
I could not understand the process to implement

Now I find here this theory that you should be not do
There is no other motivation
You could not succeed in implementing the process alone

I I I
Now there you

Not Knowing

This is the norm as illusion dissipates
Not knowing the future I compost not in any practical way
My life enhanced but not balanced on my results

There is nothing I have to do and very little that I know
Find much to do and ways to fill this now
Some pictures don't show themselves till they stop showing themselves

They end and as her chanting silence follow see hear point
Discern a path but don't believe your faculties
They will fail you are human or that something in you I write to

Normalization of the absurd I would not call it
In house or up a tree I would not create it
Not knowing not the problem not writing not the answer either

And so this starts to flow this last month of summer
Between Chicago and New York, but for how long?
Now for sure not knowing and finding that ok

My garden struggles in this heat with no hope in sight
My luck better balanced on my results each moment
No one has the answer not knowing we all do

She Walked Out the Door

She walk out the door with this look in her I
Leaving so much behind taking so little traveling light

That was not a favor
Getting most of the stuff from 15 years of marriage with me

There is no spoils there

She walked out the door

She walked out the door
15 years and somehow there is less to grieve

No book yet written just some prose
Couple short stories

I felt worse after one bad date
I can't say i haven't given my all

Sure I break down and it is part of a process
She walked out the door

Those time my pain was so great because of these small opportunities to create new universes
The heart reacts to small things in large ways

15 years with not witness
Thrown to wolves from lake county

My lawyer has some office
I have a lawyer

Three civil actions I have handled in the last two years without one
I am two and one

I have three sisters
They have a cool niece and nephew

I have a lawyer
The door closed behind her

No more waves upon our shore
She left seeking something

I hope she finds what we never lost