Not Knowing

This is the norm as illusion dissipates
Not knowing the future I compost not in any practical way
My life enhanced but not balanced on my results

There is nothing I have to do and very little that I know
Find much to do and ways to fill this now
Some pictures don't show themselves till they stop showing themselves

They end and as her chanting silence follow see hear point
Discern a path but don't believe your faculties
They will fail you are human or that something in you I write to

Normalization of the absurd I would not call it
In house or up a tree I would not create it
Not knowing not the problem not writing not the answer either

And so this starts to flow this last month of summer
Between Chicago and New York, but for how long?
Now for sure not knowing and finding that ok

My garden struggles in this heat with no hope in sight
My luck better balanced on my results each moment
No one has the answer not knowing we all do

She Walked Out the Door

She walk out the door with this look in her I
Leaving so much behind taking so little traveling light

That was not a favor
Getting most of the stuff from 15 years of marriage with me

There is no spoils there

She walked out the door

She walked out the door
15 years and somehow there is less to grieve

No book yet written just some prose
Couple short stories

I felt worse after one bad date
I can't say i haven't given my all

Sure I break down and it is part of a process
She walked out the door

Those time my pain was so great because of these small opportunities to create new universes
The heart reacts to small things in large ways

15 years with not witness
Thrown to wolves from lake county

My lawyer has some office
I have a lawyer

Three civil actions I have handled in the last two years without one
I am two and one

I have three sisters
They have a cool niece and nephew

I have a lawyer
The door closed behind her

No more waves upon our shore
She left seeking something

I hope she finds what we never lost