Fifteen Years

There are simple rules to life for me
If you see me doing something for fifteen years means want to keep doing it
Life is short yet eternal

They Pay for the Coffee

So maybe it was the end, at least I was a vegan and had lost 30 pounds.  Would not want to deal with this and that.
"How are you going to be a vegan in Sarajevo?!?", She demanded for some reason, I never said anything about living in Sarajevo, did she know something? Was this the plan?
"It will be a business and it will be cool vegan stuff and people come and drink coffee and they stay and maybe we talk about the war and maybe we talk about the future."
She said, "You can't make a life like that how will you pay rent and that's not a life", She demanded again, "why how?"
"They pay for the coffee."

In any case it is another title of a book that is not yet written.

Describe Chocolate

If it is only sweet for you there is so much more even I have no clue the variety.  Sea Salted chocolate for one example has the quality we all share.  This salt traveled so well as to be craved when not found.  You don't want but you want.  Who are you?

Qualities we share are earthen and brown with this magic food.  Something that makes the modern world easier to be in.  I imagine the range and the spear and the antelope and my cousin neanderthal painting those walls that spoke to us of more.  Might rather trod that ancient soil and just  learn those ancient lessons.  Those rituals we have all forgotten.

We know the world is wrong by what the world produces.  We know the goal sustainability.  I have to admit I don't think of that when I bite into the chocolate.  It is not like sitting helpless on the steps looking up to the stars and remembering these same stars you told there could be no possible good future.  Those same stars I no longer tell anything.  They don't want to listen, but chocolate does.

Me you and them were just born here and there was chocolate everywhere around.  There are no people older than this reality.  It's a great reality, but as my wise friend said, "It’s nice to have treats, but if you get them all the time, you don’t appreciate them as much." 


We act as if we know what it means to be awash in a world of unsustainable chocolate.  It is the defining quality of the food stuff and what we all share.  


But there are these miracles all around us.  You can describe anything thus.  You really can if you think about it.


If it is only ______ for you there is so much more even I have no clue the variety. 


I am sure however your being has described something of chocolate to you better than my words could like most thing like love.
I am sure your being has described something of love to you.


People didn't have all the chocolate in the past.  Like say the cocaine today: mostly in the hands of the rich.  Tell the truth out loud and live in the world you create. 


I am sure there has never been anyone older than love

A Rosie Interlude

I found Vanja and the most amazing of occurrences: Rosie, half Bosnian half English living in the south of London.  At only four month she was all the counsel I needed.  I loved living in Florida because I had friends that were completely unrelated to me as a child, but I was still a child.  I guess many people find this same occurrence.  I was visiting a home and what is more a family.  Rosie has this jumping thing I guess you call it hanging from the ceiling.  And she jumps and she is Rosie.    Completely herself.  She learned to roll over shortly before I arrived, but she hadn't quite figured out that she couldn't crawl as her amazingly active lags dug her arms and head into the carpet.  She screamed with frustration.  She knew exactly what she wanted to do, but she couldn't and she didn't know why. As adults we sat around and knew without a doubt that time will bring answers.  We know how to help her.  She's only been doing this human thing for four months.  I've only been doing this human thing for twenty-five years and I still find my head dug into the carpet screaming.  We find frustration in not seeing solution.  There is a solution to life and thanks to Vanja and James and Rosie I found a rosy interlude with cigarettes in the kitchen.

Everyone son.  Everyone daughter.  And in London the circus continues. 

I'd like to go to London and find a cake walk where we all move place to place each with our own to the music as it plays and in a pause stand and find banana chocolate crunch love in her place.  It's first who we find next to us.  Second who we are.  Rosie my new friend at four months.

2:39 --> 2:42

Sara sleeping, mommy and daddy go to eat lunch with grandma and grandpa for the first time in a long time, and hope Sara will sleep So Grandpa won't say to leave Sara crying, "it's good for the lungs."

Lunch finishes with talk of war and escape.  I don't know what I should think, but there doesn't seem to be anywhere to run to...we are together.

When Sara was born she had 1/4 the brain size that she will have as an adult.  For her first birthday she will have 3/4.
Her brain size will triple in one year.  They say the smartest kids are born in war, and I believe them for only in war can you truly make time for your baby.  My Algebra teacher Mr Keegan was right and I always find use for it.